I am trying

I'm on top,

I'm on top,

I've been here for a while

looking out and down,

all of you are with me,

some even

most down.

Where am I,

none of the others seem to see me

they see the shadows i cast but not me.

Am i real without them

they seem to whisper these words.

I must be real,

there are others like me.

They speak to me

they don't see through me.

I must be real,

my vocality is too loud not to be,

i'm listening to hard

this driving beat,

our hearts disunion,

they are deafening me,

beginning to bury me.

Must they do this to me,

call me

beckoning to me, "come down,"

they cry for me to be there,

lose myself into them,

let go,

let go.

I'm so tired,

weakened in me,

my strength fading from me,

i'm reaching forward,

still grinding forth.

I'm not done yet

you haven't even started the stitches to seal me

I may carry my tombstone

it might be ready,

but i will try,

i'll strive forward,

i'll try.

and none of you can touch my shadow,

i am above you,

i am trying

i am trying.

and none of you can hear me,

my heart beats to a diffrent tune

i am trying

i am trying.

and none of you can judge me,

because you are not me inside,

i am trying

i am trying.

i am here,

and i am trying.

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